I'm Embarrassed by Everything I Don't Understand

I'm Embarrassed by Everything I Don't Understand

• I'm embarrassed by everything I don't understand.
• I am at the bookstore and skim a book on autism.
• I start reading and realize while I may know some ideas,
• I haven't understood the meanings of neurodiversity
• neurotypical-ness and autism generally.
• I'm embarrassed for all the times
• I thought I was tracking in a conversation or essay
  
• but wasn't.
• I'm embarrassed for all the times in the future I think I'll understand
• but won't.